Thank You

Although my need is great, my gratitude is more.

But you are like the sunshine, drowning all in light.

Thank you to~

My husband ~

Mohd Shahid Mohd Mustafa

My family ~

My sisters Ja & Mila, My brothers Muzaffar, Ayut & Bob, My nieces Chacha, Dania & Sofia, My Tok Cuk & Long, My uncles, aunties & their whole family, Achik, Mok & Cu Ani & Pak Anjang. My In Laws, Teh & Ayah. Shahid's brothers and sisters, aunties, uncles and cousins.

My best friends ~

Zana & Kamarul, Anas, Sally, Sala & Idris, Art & Tasha, Pak Don & Aton, Maria & Alawi, Yan & Khalid, Ada & Fairuz, Zue & Naga, Imah & Ayob, Ros & Sam, Kak Yong,Kak Chik, Bjoe, Faizal Jahaya.

My Sisters in the Office ~

Kak Chom, Kak Jam, Kak Shinie, Kak Non, Kak Ha, Siti, Ana, Zaza, Cha, Shabee, Shara, Kak Mimi.

My beloved ex bosses ~

En Ismail, Tn. Hj Azam, Dato' Wan & Datin Teh

I want to tell you "Thank you,"

But it doesn’t seem enough.

Words don’t seem sufficient--

"Blah, blah" and all that stuff.
Please know I have deep feelings

About your generous act.

I really appreciate you;

You’re special, and that’s a fact!

My Shahid

My Shahid is someone……who knows what i need before i say it. …who knows when to laugh and when to cry. …who truly listens when i have something to say. …who's there for me during the good and bad times. …who i can trust like a sibling, confide in like a friend.…who knows when things have to be compromised. …who gives a shoulder to cry on. …who can get a point across without yelling. …who remembers all the cute stupid stuff i love. …who realizes we're two separate people, and appreciates the differences. …who understands the difference between PMS, and a real problem. …who can make me happy when I am sad. …who tells me the truth even if i don't want to hear it. …who is a sweet, romantic person who cherishes me no matter what. …who would do anything to show how much he cares. …who cherishes my hopes and is kind to my dreams. …who loves me with all his heart and soul.

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Kau Tercipta Untukku

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu

Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku

Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah

Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata

Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan

Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu

Hadir dan temani aku

Disetiap langkah

Yang meyakiniku

Kau tercipta untukku

Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu

Hadir dan temani aku

Disetiap langkah

Yang meyakiniku

Kau tercipta untukku

Meski waktu akan mampu

Memanggil seluruh ragaku

Ku ingin kau tau

Kuslalu milikmu

Yang mencintaimu

Sepanjang hidupku

Dedicated to Ayah

I was ENCOURAGED to start this blog. I consider it as a part of my theraphy. I remembered arwah ayah used to keep a diary. He loyally jot down everything in his diary. Even kadang-kadang the only thing he wrote were 'pergi pasar'. I remembered feeling uncomfortable seeing him doing that. Like.. he is counting the days before he leaves this world. I guessed he did. He stopped writing in his diary 100 days before he passed away.

I want to do this ~ keep a diary. Maybe I should start early. I want to remind myself always that I might have days, maybe months or maybe a few years to live. And I want to make every day, every hour, every minute meaningful! Even if the only thing I'll do in a day is going to the pasar!

Love you Ayah & Mak. So much.